I’ve always been extremely conscious of the countless features that society considers ‘flawed’. When I was younger, I was the largest girl in my class; I always felt isolated. I felt like I couldn’t talk about body image with my friends. I kept in so many questions and feelings I had about my weight problems because I felt like I was the only one going through them.
My low self-esteem held me back in terms of my personal life. I always took the longest time to get ready in the morning: each day, I was overly critical of myself and each day, I ended up wearing the same baggy things to cover myself up. I had an incredibly hard time carrying out basic activities like shopping for clothes or participating in school activities. The way I looked made me incredibly anxious.
At eighteen, I finally pushed myself to work hard for a healthier version of me. I ate well, exercised and essentially, got past my biggest insecurities. In order to do that, I had to pin point my unhealthiest habits , mental and physical, and work at them. For real change, you have to be disciplined enough to be better for yourself. It doesn’t matter where you are in your journey – always know that it’s possible to make small but high-impact changes to your lifestyle.
To the girls who feel awkward, fat and alone, know that your health and well-being are more important than anything and if you feel the need to, things can change. Stay focused and find what motivates you to become the healthiest, happiest you. Most importantly, never let anyone let you feel that your weight, size, or any other aspect of your appearance, defines your worth as a person.
Sharlynn was born in Singapore and raised in Vietnam, Myanmar and Cambodia before returning to Singapore. She is currently studying Business Marketing and Management at Curtin University, Singapore.